Sunday, 5 January 2020

Bar work Gillingham vs West Ham and learning self confidence


Working the bar at the stadium was more fun than I imagined. When I was younger I convinced myself I could not work in such a high-pressure environment because I would mess up or I would short change someone and he/she would be angry. I don't know why in my 20s I always thought I could never do anything other than run and draw. Its a weird thing to think about no Ima well in too my 30s and approaching the year when Jesus died. Self-confidence has always been an issue and I am wondering if I can ever match up to any standard. Mainly I think that's due the racist bullying I felt during Primary school. Anyway while working I met a nice woman who was lesbian. Did not figure it out at the time because I thought she was flirting with me until she mentioned her orientation. Goes to show I truly know nothing about women.

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